kurisumasu!

It's been slightly over a week since my aunt left for malaysia. and i'm loving every single bit of my freedom right now! =)

been abit antisocial cause my interpersonal communication has been reduced to only 2 people for the past week, but still i'm not complaining, since it'll be reduced to only 1 by the end of the year *sob!*

oh wells, that doesnt mean i'm not going out everyday and learning alot of things =)

oh yea and i had a wonderful wonderful christmas thanks to Frank and my brother for the crazy, interesting, fruitful and eye-opening adventures, and the amazing pressies. =)

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watched Alvin and the chipminks 2 today. xDD Theodore is loove

and the female chipmunks are so sexy! omg hahaha

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and i'm gonna get a haircut tomorrow. expressed my curiousity as to what kind of monstrosity would be unleashed upon my head/hair and heard a laugh. teehee =)

laughter is what makes my day =)

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watching david letterman's late show now. robert downey junior guest starring!! =O i so wanna watch sherlock holmes. and the tooth fairy! =D

and omg south park marathon during new years eve! =DDD loll if only vern's still here.

彩虹

Lu said, in terms of human interaction, if 2 people dont change their thinking and heart, things will always be the same. and that if you keep doing what you've been doing, you'll get what you have always been getting.

but i think the latter part is only true provided the 1st part occurs. i understand the fickleness of the human heart... that said, as much as i dont want to believe it, i know the truth is that nothing is ever permanent.

if you keep doing what you have been doing, but the other person changed his/her way of thinking, or needs, or priorities, you wont be getting what you've always been getting, no?

we can promise each other everything under the sun, but when the time comes and when there's a change, priorities and everything shift overnight, and things will never be the same again.

2 months... such a long time. what will happen then? will everything still be the same?

i dont know what i'm looking for, or what i can do, or what i can change. maybe i just need a little reassurance. would you give it to me?

Dispensing Love

working has been a rather cool experience up till now. (and i hope it gets better)

besides the fact that he can't call my name properly most of the time, having a guitar jamming boss is great fun. when it gets quiet, he whips out his "best friend", he strums, he hums, he sings. then he goes "hey Jee-ahn, sing along!". and he later tells me he's losing interest in pharmacy. great xD

and i learn much much more about life there than i do about drugs. but that's fine too, cos it's fun. =)

it's great having a mentor who tells you never to use others to bind yourself, and that life is all about pleasure. which probably is the soundest advice anyone can give to me cos i never seem to move on quickly enough. always have fun and think positive! =) i think i just found my way to becoming who i was before. hehe

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i love you.

been doing some reflecting. and came to terms with the fact that i, too, take some things for granted. looks like subconsciously i havent been that innocent after all.

i'm sorry.

my craziness has finally caught up with me. fail to realise not everyone is up to my level of craziness. and i got into trouble due to my mischief-making today.

so i'm sorry and i love you. lol i've said it and i vow to never speak it again. xD

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and it's the wedding! =)

took a bite, realised it was the yummiest sticky date pudding everrrr and can't resist taking a picture =P

drinks =3

spotted someone with a very familiar jacket xD

(L)

<3

brought a little companion home with me today to spend the night with =) damn cute kay! <3 looks like baby bear will have to take the back seat for a few nights heehee

bits and pieces

the best ideas, verses and rhymes always come during shower time. but the sucky part is when i cant just rush out of the shower wet and everything to get it down on paper. and by the time i get out of the bathroom i'd have already forgotten how it's supposed to sound like xD

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love being a kitchen helper, a cooking-mate (whatever you call it) for a patient and encouraging "supervisor". cooking edible and yummy food feels good too! learnt lots, and positive reinforcement rocks. plus, as long as there's no pressure, all's good =)

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watched Avatar. ROCKS ASS. love love love the fluorescent glowing colours. and wonderful concepts. nerve endings in at hair endings. uploading and downloading information into a tree database. how awesome is that? so many things to love =)

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i still cant find my journal. brain overflowing with new compositions and ideas. guess i will be doing massive digging in my room tomorrow. gotta find it before they fade away! the race against time. sigh not something i always win xD

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back to square one. it always starts off with the ignorance of the innocent, blissfully unaware of all the beautiful little things being missed out. then it's found, lost, found, lost. but despite how i was so certain and clear back then, things seem different now. reality is finally starting to kick in, and like a punch in the gut it hits. the smokescreen is gone now. the rose-tinted glasses that i once used to see through too exist no more. perhaps it never was what i was looking for to start with, but i was blinded. by the foolishness and frailty that defines the very core of the human heart, and by the desperation to fill the black hole-like void, to be whole. but time saw to that problem i guess. the oldest, slowest, most heart-wrenchingly painful, yet the most effective medicine. so ultimately, the main lesson would probably be how you can feel like you've learnt alot sometimes but in the end the last lesson you learn after everything is that you actually havent learnt anything at all zomg! hahaha but such is life. it leads you round and round in circles but you end up where you started xD suddenly reminded of how very young i am still, have a loooong way to go xD

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mayer is keeping me sane. thank you for the music.

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feel like writing music. but no piano =( i should really go get a sugar daddy teehee i meant i need a piano. portable or not. doesnt matter. lol and i need more sleep.

hahah random i noe.

half of my heart

from the caveman to lady gaga. lol!

i can so imagine Vern in his shoes speaking the same way as he did at the "newship" part xD hahaha =) isn't that so Vern? or rather, isn't Vern so John Mayer? lolll~ i think Mei Shan or any other S3-ians would agree =)

good love advice too at the end =) so so true.

friends, lovers, or nothing. reminds me of a pic sent to me by Lu.

hehehe injected a little mario humour =P

i want battle studies! the heartbreak handbook.

youtubing mayer mayer mayer.

=) hehehe love.

dec 09

talk about having a busy month =)

busy and fun calender of this month! heeeheeee =)


lol honestly dont want this month to end tho, cos when it does i'll truly be left all alone in melbourne =S

should tell boss about me booking a flight home soon. mmm actually i wonder if i should. what if he fires me? =O how?

LE SIGH

miss so many people =(

currently missing Verny boy the most. cos he's leaving on wednesday.

*cries!*

another buddy less! haih~~

Hidup S3!

want to shut down.

get out of my head =(

sayangs!

the one who protected the silver lining =) Waikit hates the dinosaur as much as a do lol,

Kit says (11:05 AM):

*give her a huge dose of "i don't give a crap"

*why don't u make a deal

Kit says (11:06 AM):

*"i help u to get the visa done... u stay in china, AND DONT COME NEAR ME"

Lolz~~~

cant wait till you get here =)

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sexy right? i know. teehee!