junkyard

that's what i'm treating my blog as today. i'm sorry. i just need to get some more stuff out of my system today. hehe don't read it if you don't want to. they're just.... ramblings full of negative vibes, so do skip to the next next next next post if you dont feel like you're up for my brain+emotional waste.

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sometimes i swear the world is out to get me.

i was cursing it.

and there it was again, popping out right in front of my face and taunting me.

fine fine, i know i'm not good enough, i'm not worth it. /rolleye

and i'm reminded once again that i'm so very very alone.

as if that needed reminding.

i've been so angsty and sad lately. me no likey =(

more like just a depressed sad actually =(

sigh i mustn't succumb to weakness.

but, it's just too easy to do so.

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Came back late, and gave Snugs a tight tight hug for the longest of time.

Going back to Camberwell wasn't a good idea.

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Dear Life,

i'm not being unreasonable. is it not right to ask for a little lasting peace and quiet? and more harmony and love? you're just being too mean. dont pick on me! =( give me something good for me to look forward to this time, ok? if you can't, then maybe you can get me a memory eraser? that would work great too. thanks!

xoxo

Jian

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when i grow up, i want to have an awesome hubby and great kids.

i want to continue having a close, loving relationship with my siblings.

i want to live near my mum & dad, bring them to parks, bring them yummy food everyday.

i will laugh everyday and live happily ever after with my happy family.

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that's all for tonight. wonder if anyone actually read it this far. =o